Diary of a Quixotic Painter...
what is she thinking???

quix·ot·ic: adj. 1. Caught up in the romance of noble deeds and the pursuit of unreachable goals;
idealistic without regard to practicality. 2. Capricious; impulsive:
“At worst his scruples must have been quixotic, not malicious” (Louis Auchincloss).



Wednesday, 4 January 2006

Happy New Year to everyone out there! We're starting a whole new year full of new possibilities. Last year's journal was littered w/ all my Thyroid issues, I know. However, when you really think about it I guess it really does affect my art work. Obviously it does because, and I'll be honest with you, it's been really hard to concentrated on painting or any other artform. I don't know if anyone out there gets this, but whenever they take you off of your meds, like they did before some of my tests, your whole body just wants to shut down. You feel this sense of heaviness, fatigue, depression...even anger because you don't feel like yourself. Top that off with a nice helping of pure frustration and you've got yourself a total mess. Add to that a husband who's also sick and wants to help you feel better when YOU should be the one helping HIM out because he's had surgery of his own. That little cherry on top of it all is what you might call guilt.

Anyways, I'm again back on my Cytomel meds. They're not as good as the Levoxyl, but my endocrynologist has to keep me on them until all these doctors can agree on what we need to do. In the event that they need to do radiation therapy on me again, they'll need to take me off my meds AGAIN and Cytomel goes out of your system quicker than Levoxyl. This would mean I'm off my meds for 2 weeks versus 6 weeks. Chris and I went to see the Radiation Oncologist on December 30. Unfortunately, she ended up rescheduling me for a follow-up consult for Jan. 12. She looked over all my test results and my MRI films, but wants to get more opinions from the medical board. She agrees with us that we'd rather not put me through more radiation treatment if I don't have to have one. The thing that stinks is that I have a bad feeling that they will have to do that anyways seeing as how each time they took out one side of my thyroid they kept finding cancer cells.

What I'm hoping for this year is better health, success and happiness for everyone all around. I want this to be a year where I get into more shows AND create more new paintings. Seriously, I need to get off my butt and get motivated again.


Monday, 17 July 2006

Well now, it's been quite a few months since I wrote anything in this hear online journal. RE: my thyrroid, we're slowly getting that under control again. They've got me back on Levoxyl..woohoo!!! Now if I can just manage my weight and all that. I have to say, this is even a bigger pain than it was before because now I have NO thyroid. Ugh. I guess I just have to watch what I eat and get more exercise.

I finally started painting again. In fact, I was scheduled out at Tango again last night and believe it or not, I acutally made it in to paint. I also finished TWO paintings last night. Go figure. I guess I just needed to sit down with no distractions and go for it. It felt good to paint. I just need to keep at it and have a good time while I'm doing it. I tihnk this year, among other things, I want to explore more use of texture. We'll see what happens.

Oh yeah, and I'm currently webmistress for and OC-based Roller Derby team...the OC Demolition Divas. They're a rad group of girls who are bringing Roller Derby to the OC. Keep an eye out for them. Their league is growing and soon you'll see them in bouts w/ other leagues.

As to Henna season...omg, I can't believe how busy it's been. I think this has got have been my busiest year ever. I'm really happy about this and just enjoying the fact that I'm able to share my talents w/ anyone who books me.

I guess that's it for now. I lead an exciting life don't I? hehehe


Saturday, 18 November 2006

For extra added fun...I saw my life FLASH BEFORE MY EYES TONIGHT!!!!

I swear, I almost died tonight! I was driving down the freeway with my kids on the way home from my sister's house when the car in the lane to my left decided he/she didn't want to be in the 'fastrak' lane at the very last second.

This a**h**le driver BARELY MISSED the barricade, swerved IN FRONT OF ME, BARELY MISSING ME , then lost control and swerved back and forth into the next lane (driver's side wheels barely touching the ground) and back into mine

It's a good thing I have good reaction time AND good brakes because I hit those AND MY HORN. Thank goodness the people behind me weren't following too closely or I'd be dead for sure. My kids were in the car with me, too!!!

Thankfully we made it home in one piece, but man, I really wish I could've called a CHP officer or something to report that seriously wreckless driving. People like that SHOULD NOT be on the road!


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